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as the title says, I apologize for not being around much lately. I have been struggling with my move to Portland, OR, and now have been homeless on and off. I am still applying to jobs like crazy, this time avoiding commission-only jobs or jobs with quotas. I need something steady and reliable, with guaranteed pay. that's making this alot harder, but restaurant jobs and cashier positions seem to be my best bet. sales jobs keep wanting to do commission-only.

I have adding begging at street corners to my daily grind, which I do secondarily to applying for jobs online. I have been able to stay at a hotel dorm on and off. it costs $29 for every night, with slight discounts for every consecutive night stayed. I also have a storage unit until the end of August. have been unable to do my laundry, which is piling up, I'll need a few dollars to take my clothes to a laundromat. food is a big expense. I need $5 to $10 every day just to eat. that gets me one nice meal or two suitable meals a day. I'll still be hungry, but at least I can keep going. if I have a bed at the dorm I can save a little money buy buying groceries, but still can't buy anything that needs to be cooked with anything other than a microwave. if it's long-lasting food, I cannot buy anything that needs refrigeration because if I have to take it with me when I don't have another night at the dorm it could spoil.

so why am I telling you all of this? because I'm desperate and need help staying afloat while I look for work. during weekdays I can show up to the Labour Ready office, but there is no guarantee of job placement for the day. the Labour Ready is closed on weekends, so that's not an option then. begging is unreliable, and might get me fed for a day if I am lucky.

so I'm asking for help. please, if you can spare anything, my PayPal donation link is paypal.me/twilightinsanity

I will accept donations, commissions, and tips. I'm pleading for help, here. anything I can do to earn it I will do gladly. and if you are kind enough to give me charity I will be extremely grateful. again, I do not intend to be a mooch. I just need to have a little support while I look for a job. I am putting in dozens of application every day. easily 30 or 40 a day.
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Pokemon Meme!

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Rules:
0) Open randompokemon.com/
1) Switch to "All regions" and "All types"
2) Switch to "1"
3) For each question, generate a Pokémon, and use it as the answer. Then comment about it 
4) PLEASE TAG SOMEONE! This is the only way the meme can get around 
5) Post these rules

~~~

1.) this is you.
Floette
Floette
XD it's so me. it's like a teenage faerie.

2.) this pokemon is your rival.
  1. Ludicolo
    Ludicolo
  2. his hat is so glorious, I must overcome it!
3.) 
  1. Ninetales
    Ninetales
  2. awww, how wonderful~ <3 wait! does this mean I'm being haunted by a mischievous Japanese spirit? I have heard scary ghost stories about what happens to men who marry kitsune!
4.) this pokemon is stalking you.
  1. Ariados
    Ariados
  2. SWEET JEESUS, that thing will kill me! DX it's so pretty, though. :3
5.) this pokemon just stole your cake.
  1. Simisear
    Simisear
  2. >:[ thieving simians! of course it was a monkey.
6.) this is your lab partner.
  1. Goldeen
    Goldeen
  2. how does this help me? o_O; it had better be useful.
7.) this is your best friend.
  1. Snivy
    Snivy
  2. yer damn right it is! <3 :snuggles and wears as a scarf.:
8.) this pokemon is about to fight you.
  1. Snover
    Snover
  2. D: will Ninetails save me?
9.) this pokemon will do anything to get your shoes.
  1. Gyarados
    Gyarados
  2. ya know what? they look better on you. keep'em, my gift.
10.) this pokemon is currently hiding in your house.
  1. Litwick
    Litwick
  2. O_O don't eat my soul! DX
11.) this pokemon is your pet.
  1. Burmy
    Burmy
  2. ಠ_ಠ so grooooooossssss!
12.) this is your new roommate.
  1. Corsola
    Corsola
  2. as long as it doesn't cause any gross residues or make it hard to clean, I'm cool with it.
13.) this is your new boss.
  1. Sceptile
    Sceptile
  2. I... don't know how to handle this.
14.) this pokemon watches you while you sleep at night.
  1. Reshiram
    Reshiram
  2. WOAH! O_O I feel special, now.
15.) this pokemon is scared of you.
  1. Kabuto
    Kabuto
  2. THAT'S RIGHT! YOU BETTER RUN! >8[
16.) this pokemon is about to perform surgery on you.
  1. Whimsicott
    Whimsicott
  2. this could have been so bad, and I'm so glad it's not.
17.) you have to babysit this pokemon all night.
  1. Vaporeon
    Vaporeon
  2. <3 <3 <3 any time~ <3 <3 <3
18.) this pokemon loves sleeping on your head.
  1. Sewaddle
    Sewaddle
  2. d'awwwwwww!! <3
19.) this pokemon envies you.
  1. Honedge
    Honedge
  2. :D reeaally~? <3 I feel so honoured.
20.) use this pokemon to tag some people.
  1. Piplup
    Piplup
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Fred Rogers once maintained that in a disaster, you look for the helpers.

If you are interested in helping, here are a few handy tips:

1. There is a GoFundMe site if you want to make donations. Thoughts and prayers are all very well, but there are people needing help.

2. Donate blood if you can. The blood banks are full now, but there are still wounded, and they'll need it.

3. If you have a friend who says that the gays deserved this, call them out on it. NO ONE deserved this.

4. If your minister/pastor/rabbi/imam/shaman says that the gays deserved this, call them out on it. For you Christians out there, a reminder - Jesus ran with the marginalized. 

Finally, I'm asking that those who follow me here on DA to please signal boost this journal.
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I went to a vigil tonight for the 50 victims of this horrific anti-gay hate crime shooting in Orlando.

not only has the mass shooting shaken me to my core, and made me fear to even leave my house (though I had the courage to do so anyway), but I also was hit particularly close to home by this attack. I have so many friends who have friends and family of their own who were [i]there[/i] during the attack. one of my best friends has a gay brother who used to go clubbing every night with his partner. they live right next door to that club, and were woken up by the gunshots. afterwards, their entire apartment building was on lockdown for hours. another of my friends, her husband has an aunt who is a nurse. she was taken hostage by the shooter. she was unharmed, but she was still being held hostage when the shooter was killed. she afterwards volunteered to help tend to the injured at the hospital. another of my best friends has a friend who was killed. only 22 years old.

okies. so. during the vigil, the speakers were all great. wonderful, really. they hit all the points (some I agreed with more, some I agreed with less, not the point).

but whenever a speaker would call the crowd to speak out on social media and in person against anti-LGBT hate, or bullying, you'd get murmurs of "yeah". when they call for lobbying to ban guns, you get fervent roars of applause. and then when they call to stop the bathroom bills, you get murmurs again.

that made me uncomfortable.

later on, another speaker called out to remember that these were mostly black and latinx trans and gay people who were killed. will you all stand up against anti-trans hate? protect people of colour? remember and defend and affirm the queer black and latinx people? complete silence.

lobby congress to ban AR 15's? roars of applause again.

I snapped. livid. stormed up from the middle of the crowd all the way up the stairs of city hall to the podium, ranting about it. snatched the mic right off the podium and yelled at the crowd "THIS IS NOT ABOUT GUNS OR RELIGION! IT'S ABOUT THE LGBT!"

I slam the mic back down, storming off. still yelling that our lives are not political points. some asshole yelled out "shut up, bitch!"

so I screamed back "FUCK YOU!"

these assholes think they are allies. fuck their false sympathy bullshit prayers. fuck their self-satisfying appearance at a vigil for the victims of an anti-LGBT hate crime to ignore LGBT rights issues and fuel their own political agendas using our deaths to make their points.

the vigil was filmed and uploaded to facebook in two videos. I appear almost halfway through the second video.

part 1:
www.facebook.com/helen.jamesst…

part 2:
www.facebook.com/yayshirley/vi…

the videos are objective, so if you want to judge me, go ahead. I don't give a shit what anyone says.
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